Evil.

ya. so what i am?
i never say that i'm an angel what??
Zzz.

you forced me to say i hate you without thinking about my feelings.
okay.
i said. and i meant it.
so...
satisfy??
that's what you want from me right??
is it hurt enough??
take it. and no thanks.

since the day we are done, i can choose not to care about you at all.
i don't have any responbility to make you happy.
i can just leave and continue my life.
but i never.
never.

yes, i felt sorry for what i did.
but guess what? it is not my fault for not loving you.
i can't force myself to love you.
no one can.
i just try to stay by your side.
as a friend.
i try to tell you that best friend is the closest relationship that we can maintain.
but you reject to accept it and accept the truth.

know what??
i thought you really meant it when the time you tell me you understand what i said last time.
'thanks god.'
i said in my heart.
but after few days, same thing happened again.
again again again again and again.
i'm so sick of it.
damn... such a retarded matter.

try to ask the people beside you, anyone you like:
1. what's tiffany loke yean yin's fault?
2. can you force yourself to love someone that you don't like?
3. will you go and commit suicide if the one you thought you need him/her leave you?
listen to them.
and tell me your result.
if they say 'everything's her fault' for Q1,
'yes, sure i can.' for Q2,
and 'ya i will.' for Q3,
tell me. i will get back to you.

you will never understand about what i've said.
you will never let me go as what you promised.
you will never grow up and be mature.
that's why we are not meant for each other.

once, i love someone as much as you love me.
he left me as how i did to you.
he's as evil as how you think about me.
but, we are different.
cause i never give up to live better.
it's hard, but not impossible.
i try to help you to be better, but you reject to be better without me.
so, what else i can do??
actually...
i shouldn't do anything.
just let it be.

before this, i blame myself.
i thought ruined your life.
but now i know, you are the one who ruined your life.

go and get your life.
if, you're still alive.
i won't care about you anymore.
cause you never appreciate the way i care of you before this.

and you really get on my nerves for typing out the msg i sent to you!
i told you those private things cause i trust you.
but you never respect me.
you made it public.

Zzz
damn.

don't blame me for being so cruel.
i'm just an evil in your eyes.
know your enemy.
i'm your enemy.