Grrr.

i think i'm really mad.
i'm stressed for whole day today.
whole day.
it's like zZzzZzzzZzZzzZzzZzzZzzzzZzzZzzZ

i have only 2 emotion today.
angry + hurt.

angry, cause i feel that i'm like betrayed.
you told everyone about my feelings.
the feelings that i try hard to cover.
the feelings that i never show others.
the feelings i hide behind my smile.
i told you cause i trust you.
but you showed it to everybody.
the worse thing is,
you deleted another few more sentences i've typed in the message.
left only two sentences.
two sentences which make people think that i'm trying to ruin you guys' friendship.
you are bravo.
even myself suspect myself after i read it.
'damn! am i trying to do so??'

hurt, cause i don't even know what's my fault.
you blame me for what??
you asked for a chance.
actually, i gave.
what you need to do is let me go.
tell me that you are mature enough by letting me go.
if you do so, i will think to get back to you.
but you didn't.
you just simply grab me tightly and don't want to let me go.
makes me feel sdf stress.
you missed the chance. but why i became the one who be blamed??

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i hide my feelings, cause i'm scared.
i'm afraid that... we can't even be strangers.

before this, i hope that you're my boy.
after some time, i hope that we can at least be friends.
and now, i just hope that we are strangers.
i just don't want you to hate me.
no matter who thinks that i'm evil, i just don't want you to think so.
no matter who says that he/she trust me, i just want you to say so.
others can hate me. but you can't do that on me. i'm not evil. i love you.

today i try to stay away from those people i don't really like.
and of course those who i hate.
cause i scare i will smack them if i stay there.
including an ego teacher.
duh! she pass by in front of us without saying hi.
she did as if she don't know me at all!
wth?
ya, phantoms sucks. i know.
but at least say hi. say hi cause we are your student.
we respect you as our teacher.
but what you did?? you asked for debt from one of us!
Zzz
it really hurts me. i hate you.

fcuk.
thanks, really thanks.
to those who gave me such a nice day.
Zzz
i've controlled my feelings for whole day.
*suffered
damn hot temper.
until my nose bled just now when i'm bath. = =''


argh!