No Boundaries.

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away

And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
There’s nothing else that I can do
And I just cant take itI just cant take it

I Can Wait Forever – Simple Plan

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I’m tired of missing you everyday.
tired of loving you everyday.
tired of waiting for you everyday.

once, i thought i can wait.
wait until the day you realize how much i love you,
and understand that how bad the way you treat me.

i guess… you did know what i think.
but you don’t really know my feelings.
even you know, you will just ignore it.
and leave me breathless.

i keep waiting.
every night before i sleep, i wish i could dream about you once again.
only me and you, sitting side by side.
i will be the one who keep talking, and you will be the one who keep listening.
just want to see again the way i smile when i’m with you.
and try again the feelings of in love.

may be, memories are gone from your life.
so i try to keep mine.
i want it to be fresh in my mind.
at least, there’s still a person who remember about it.
and she can tell people that it happened before.
that’s why i try to recall back everything.
try to dream about it…
i do pray every night before i sleep.
i keep waiting. but it never happen.

sometimes, when i have a sleepless night,
i just cry. cry, cry, cry… until i fall asleep.
that time, i only found that i’m so damn weak..
gosh… not tough at all…
i just pretend that i am.
and smile as if i’m so damn fu*king brave…
=(


people said, bad things will always happen on you in the same time.
Zzz
i really believe in this…
daddy met some problem in his business few months ago…
now, we are not able to continue our life if we stay in this condition.
mummy said, may be, may be, we got to leave here and move to another place.

where do i go?? i don’t know.
i just want to stay.
my lovely and sweet home.
i don’t wanna leave.
but i have no choice.

daddy looks concerned these few days while mummy keep worrying about our future.
and my sis, she’s not happy cause we can’t go out in this holiday.
she don’t really know what happened.
haih…

today, i asked mummy about our family...
i know may be… she need a listener?
hmmm… she always tell me some family problem.
she said i’m already mature enough to know about it…
thanks god…
she told me everything. she looks concerned but still sober.
bravo… she’s much more tougher then me…
haha

i try to share her problems
anyway, i couldn’t help at all.
and i don’t know who can share my problems now.
i feel lost.
all my family members look sad.
except my brother.
sure… cause he know nothing.

after open school, i got to hand in all the fees.
tuition fees, school fees, transport fees.
400bucks.
i try to solve it myself.
but… money won’t drop from the sky right??
i’m just 16. or may be… 15+7months.
Zzz

i really need a shoulder for me to lean on.
but i couldn’t tell my sis. i promised mummy.
so… who else?
no one else.
friends are not by my side in holidays.

i feel so lonely and helpless.
it’s like… i’m fighting against the problems alone.
no one can help me to solve the problems, i know.
but i just want someone to share these with me.
tell me that ‘you’re not alone… i’m here…’.
so that i don’t need to cry alone in the bathroom.