Freaked Out.

i did something crazy today.
i ran in the rain.
in the pouring rain.

and i feel good actually.
even it's freaking wet.
i'm refreshed.
and thanks god, i got the reason to run away from you.

then, walked to the bus stop alone.
rain stopped.
tears flow through my cheek.
tears which made from anger, disappointment and the friendship between you and me.

since these weeks, i feel kinda lonely.
for losing you as my friend.
but now, i'm confused.

you don't love her.
and you know what's with her.
but still, you still wanna be with her.
so what else i can say?
that's your own choice.

a little reminder for you: please don't be naive.
she will eliminate you before you achieve your target.
you're smart enough to understand what i mean.
explanation is unneeded.

i can't stop you.
cause that's the way you want.
but just to let you know, i'm not happy with what you did.
i feel disappointed.
i feel angry.
i feel sad.
i love you as a friend.
so much i do.

thanks for giving me such a big surprise today.
you make me feel like screaming in front of people.

get your new life dude.
i'm not going to support you for doing so.
but wish you all the best.
as long as you don't regret with your decision.

forgive me for being so cruel.
don't expect people to treasure you if you don't love yourself.
remember, you are the only one who judge your life and fate.
not me, not love.
take care.