Love Game

i never cried last night.
ridiculous and crazy.
i enjoyed the party to the full.
i guess it's because of i'm used to be.
yeah i admit i'm fake saying that i'm ok and i don't care.
but i'm not sad. just angry.

finally, i know i changed.
i can control my tears.
i don't cry because of those who hurt me.

it's hard to fight alone. :(
but that's the best way for me to be tough.
once, i asked for help from someone.
but we'll be having our own life soon. different way.
that's what he said.
i guess he's right.
so i have to be alone.
but don't worry... cause i know,
if i want to be tough, i must stand up by myself.
without the one i need the most.
if i fall, that's my own business.

******

people said hatred will makes you feel bad, forgive and forget is better.
............ aha...
honestly...... i'm not that kind.

come on...
so what if i hate you?
ala... i don't like to act like a forgiver.
i'm not. totally not.
forgiveness will not be given every time.
i gave it last time cause i love you.
but now you are just nothing.
so why should i forgive you?
bring on my hatred and continue your game.
people will do the same on you.

'i hate you' doesn't means 'i still care'.
i just simply hate you :)